Monday, September 30, 2013
Dew in the Morning.
It's thick because the grass is so long, because he's been riding his bike and not mowing, because he raced 50 miles yesterday on his mountain bike, because he's 40 and doesn't want to feel it, because we all do this, because getting old sucks, because it feels good to feel young. I'm working now, because (well) everyone expected that I should, because a job fell into my lap, because nature works in the weirdest ways, because I guess it's supposed to be what I'm doing. Saturday was Parent's Weekend. Up and over the App Gap at 8 a.m., sun luring me, highlighting the bright oranges, making me have to squint, making it harder to see the fallen apples in the road, making it more of an enjoyable ride. Meet the Parents, talk about my class, hope it aligns with what they want for their children, pack it all up and head back over the gap. Jamfest 2013. Boys are packed for hockey but wear their soccer stuff, because soccer is in an hour, because that's how it was scheduled, because that's how the world works. Bristol Jamboree, two games, one goal a piece, because my guys know how to get er' done, because that's how we roll, because that's how the cookie crumbles, because...wha? Back in the car from Bristol to Essex because hockey "team placements" are in an hour, because that's how it was scheduled, because that's how the world works, because I have no control over it. Boo. Nerves galore because everyone wants to succeed, because it makes the confidence soar, because it gives a boost to the ego. But I have to go. Back over the Gap. Scholarship dinner. Gala. Big ToDo. First, however, I shower outside, sun behind the trees is setting, my favorite time of day, so chips and beer while I shave. It's a perfect combination, because they're all the things I love in the world (beer, chips, hot showers) all rolled up into one, because that's how life should be, a tootsie roll of your favorite things. Find a dress that barely fits, because the back fat is directly related to how many beers and chips are consumed, because that's just a rule of nature, what goes in must come out, and if it doesn't...it stays on your back in the form of larger tootsie rolls. Whatever. Sun now chasing me, highlighting the bright oranges, making it harder to see the fallen apples in the road, making it more of an enjoyable ride. Meet the Parents, talk about their children, wish I had a million dollars to bid on all the great trips around the world, because how cool would that be, because the world is a big place, because that's how it was created, because something in space blew up, because....I don't know why something in space blew up. Drink one too many glasses of wine, get entranced with the live action, because it was amazing to witness people's generosity, because sometimes the people with the most money actually like to give it away, because it makes them feel good about having all that money, because maybe they feel guilty; I'm making stuff up now. Ditched on my dish duties because I was having so much fun, because the wine was free, because it was an open bar, because the school wants you to loosen up, because they feel this gets you excited about spending your money because that is, in fact, probably how it works. Feeling guilty today because I didn't help out, because I'm a team player, because I was raised that way, because I like relying on each other to get things done, because it makes it easier to go through life to have a teammate, because doing it all alone is no fun, because life is short, because someone said we humans can't control that, which means we have to live life to its fullest. The Dew is thick. Be grateful.